pragmatically sentimental

 

Nibbling on some corn rn while I watch the rain.

I’m already 8 days into my meds, and I’m finally not feeling like absolute garbage. I think it’s also because I’ve been intentionally staying away from anything I don’t have the energy to entertain.

Anyways, I’m also putting together some new study hacks for Elyza. She’s heading into 7th grade, so I just wanna help her learn well without her turning study time into therapy time haha. I kinda go Dr. Justin Sung mode whenever I help her, so she actually gets how things fit together instead of just memorizing things the old-fashioned way.

It’s 5:48 PM rn

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Bought an ice cream soda and some chips ‘cause I’m gonna watch something crime-related or undercover spy-ish first, then nerd out on longevity and cellular biology books. Not sure what that says about me though, but I feel like my little sis would take one look at my entertainment choices and just sigh haha

A beautiful realization to have over a plate of pork BBQ

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8:10 in the evening. I was eating when I suddenly had this thought like…

I kinda wanna be the kind of friend who doesn’t make people feel small or point out what they don’t have, but the one who actually spots what’s already good in them and kinda helps them see it too.

For a moment, it felt like I was back in 2017.

I was asked to help a group of newbies. And there was this girl who was so self-conscious about her voice and kind of lost on what she was doing. And I just said her voice actually sounded really strong and authoritative. She lit up after that.

Now that I think about it, she had that Jessica Pearson vibe from Suits. 🤍






 

new favorite unlocked

 

Do you ever just open YouTube and watch whatever then realize you’ve accidentally turned into a backup dancer, or just like me, a total fan?

Watch, uh (Hey), I'ma bite back, uh
Jiteun eodumi magaseol ttaen, uh
Han georeum apeuro naradeun, it's bad
Sarajin feedback, sijakdoen code black, huh

Gipeoga, hollanseureoun bam
Angmongeun tto jitge beonjyeoga
Mwongal sumgiryeogo hae, I got it, I got it
Hondoneul tago deopchyeo, killing like

Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
'Cause I wanna see, I wanna see truly
Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Naege dagawa, dagawa

I'ma get it done
Neol hyanghae gyeonwo, get it, gone 
Ijen neol kkeunnae, bеtter run
Kkeuteul morеuneun neowa na, you gonna, gonna
Kkaeteuryeo geochimeopsi done (Go way up, way up)
Full shot, pull it up, Armageddon

I'ma get 'em
Shoot
I'ma get 'em

Hey, ya
Tto dareun na
Uril makji ma
We never play nice (Shoot)
Uh, wanbyeokan pair, neon ttokgateun soul
Three to get ready, urin shoot and go
Geop eopsi nubyeo
Nal ikkeuneun way, yeah, yeah

Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Yes, I'm gonna see, I'm gonna see, want it
Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Dabi deullyeowa, deullyeowa

I'ma get it done
Neol hyanghae gyeonwo, get it, gone 
Ijen neol kkeunnae, better run
Kkeuteul moreuneun neowa na, you gonna, gonna (Uh)
Kkaeteuryeo geochimeopsi done (Go way up, way up)
Full shot, pull it up, Armageddon

I'ma get 'em

Tto
Eodumeul moranaego
Sijageul kkotpiun neowa naui story
Deo wanbyeokaejin uri
Jeonguihae ijen
Namanui "complete"
Nae modeun geol ikkeureo, do it all myself
Wanjeonhan nareul irwonae, ooh (Drop)

Throw it back, throw it back, throw it back
Born like a queen, born like a king, yeah 
Throw it back, throw it back, throw it back

Awww

 

She's actually the cutest ever

Got woken up twice by my little sis. She even tried to feed me a gummy bear haha. Told her I can’t ‘cause of my tummy. Then she came back with coffee cake for me awww ♡

I’m feeling kinda low energy today so I mostly just listened to K-pop and whatever I could find to watch.

Hoesaekbiche gatyeobeorin neverland

We know how it ends

Tto uimi eopsi dolgodoneun everyday

[Pre-Chorus]

Deoneun gal su eopge, yeogi maemdolge hae

Naega sarajin kkumsoge

Kkeuteomneun chetbakwi ullineun meari

Byeogeul neomeo let's break this fate

[Chorus]

Nal dwiheundeuneun heart, now I run away

Doraseo nan imi eoseo hold my hand

Hangeoreum move, meolli jeo huimihan view, pureun bicheul ttara nal

Kkeureodanggyeo neon now I run away, I run away

Meomchwobeorin sigan sok
Han chi apdo al su eomneun naeireun
Nal duryeopge hae
Amugeotdo hal su eopdeon me and you
Oh, I try all night
Simjangui tteollimeul jjocha
Urimanui dareun yeojeongeul chaja
Tteona

Repeat Chorus

Jeo meon uju eodinga

Byeolbitdeurui synchronize

Pyeonghaenghaneun neowa na

Urin seorol arabwa

In the space, saegeul deotchilhae ga like Picasso

In the frame, wanseongdoeneun geurim, machi Van Gogh

Adeukan eodumdo museopji aneun geol

Ne gyeote isseunikka

[Pre-Chorus]

Eodumi jiteojil ttaen

Urin seororeul neukkyeo

Ttaseuhi binna always

[Chorus]

I'll make the stars align

Sеororeul inneun han ssangui byeol

Hamkkеramyeon nan duryeopji ana

I'll make you, make you feel alright

Kkeotteuriji aneul shining light 

Uriga jikyeonaen bit

Yeogi banjjagigo isseo

Yeah, we'll make a starry night

Cheot mannameun once upon a time

I remember, kkamppagideon du nunapui saehayateon bit

Jageun tanseong then I called ya

Volumeeul nopin playlist

Enjineul kyeoneun spaceship

Geu eodideun joa, we gon' be alright

Yeah, yeah, eoneusae jeo meolli sarajineun Question 

Eoreobutdeon mameul nogin neoui *Passion*

 

[Pre-Chorus]
Du soneul matjabeun chae
Urin seororeul neukkyeo
Cheoncheonhi binnan seollem (Oh)

[Chorus]
I'll make the stars align
Seororeul inneun han ssangui byeol
Hamkkeramyeon (hamkkeramyeon) nan duryeopji ana
I'll make you, make you feel alright 
Kkeotteuriji aneul shining light 
Uriga jikyeonaen bit
Yeogi banjjagigo isseo
Yeah, we'll make a starry night

Baraneun dan hana 
Only want you here for life 
Up and outer space

[Chorus]
You make the stars align
Seororeul inneun han ssangui byeol
Ne gyeochiramyeon nan duryeopji ana (Oh, oh)
I'll make you, make you feel alright
Yeongwonhi nunbusil shining light
Uriga jikyeonael bit
Yeogi banjjagigo isseo
Yeah, we'll make a starry night

Starry night, starry night
Starry night, starry night
Starry night, starry night
Urideurui seollemeul sunoa
Make a starry night

These parts of Jang Wonyoung’s interview were
the real standouts for me 👑

장도연: When do you love yourself?

장원영: When I’m not afraid of anything. I love when I’m not afraid to do something.

✿

Even if people say something hurtful, if it’s not true for me, I don’t get offended. If it’s not true for me, it’s unrelated to me. If it is true, and if it’s something I should improve on, I just have to fix it.

♡

It’s impossible to not get offended at all. But even when I’m offended,  I try to take it in a healthy way and try not to lose myself. Also, whatever you say will all come back to you.

 

장도연: When younger idols come up to you to share their difficulties, is there something you’d like to tell them?

장원영: I really want to tell them that even though work is important, you are the most important. So think what makes you the most happy. 

Just tryna stay okay so I don’t respawn in the hospital

 

Lunch break.

I just had a small bowl of rice and beef soup for lunch, and am now drinking a probiotic drink so my tummy doesn't get grumpy. Anyways, gonna dabble in some math and neuroscience today. Math’s for my sis, the other is to prevent my cognitive functions from reaching zero. Might just do 30 mins each and see if I actually absorb anything or just look at the pretty colors.

 

 

It’s almost one o’clock. 

I’m just sitting here nibbling on some sweet mangoes. Then gonna read after this with rain sounds, or maybe just sing along to some K-pop. ♡ ♫

Mianhae mianhae hajima
Naega chorahaeji janha
Ppalgan yeppeun ipsullo
Eoseo nareul jugigo ga
Naneun gwaenchanha

Majimageuro nareul barabwajwo
Amureochi anheun deut useojwo
Nega bogo sipeun ttae giokhal su itge
Naui meorissoge ne eolgul geureol su itge

Neol bonael su omneun naui yoksimi
Jibchagi dweeo neol gadwotgo
Hoksi ireon na ttaeme himdeureotni
Amu daedap eomneun neo
Babocheoreom wae neoreul jiuji mothae
Neon tteonabeoryeotneunde

Neoui nun, ko, ib
Nal manjideon ne songil
Jageun sontopkkaji da
Yeojeonhi neol neukkil su itjiman
Kkeojin bulkkotcheoreom
Tadeureogabeorin uri sarang modu da
Neomu apeujiman ijen neol
Chueogira bureulge

Saranghae saranhaetjiman
Naega bujokhaesseotna bwa
Hoksi uyeonirado
Hansunganmanirado neol
Bolsu isseulkka

Haru haruga buranhaejyeo
Ne modeulge galsurok huimihaejyeo
Sajin soge neoneun wae haemalge unneunde
Uriege dagaoneun ibyeoreul moreun chae

I'm a diamond
Neomu sojunghan nae maeumeun
Neoreul bol ttae binna
I can't, I can't stop myself
Am I selfish?
Nunchi eomneun ne mam daesin
Jigeum i seollemi
Hwolssin deo naegen sojunghae

Boy, I ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (My love)
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
Oh, my crush, that's all my wish
Bichi naneun i seollemeun mot chamji hyeopjohaejwo, you gotta
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (My love)
Eochapi neon nae ge, nae ge bunmyeong
Nal mallil sun eopseulgeol
Haneunimdo du son du bal deureotji joahae 'cause I wanna

Neoran aineun make me higher neol utgimyeon
Useulkka? Eotteolkka? Isanghage bolkka?
Sangsangmaneuro nan
Oh, cherish my love
If you, if you, if you love me or not, gunggeumhae neoui mam
Gomineun samchoman nan my way
Ne mameun du beonjjae nae gagoga cheot beonjjae
Jeoldae kkeutkkaji jikyeo nae gamjeong

Boy, I ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (My love)
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love
Oh, my crush, that's all my wish
Bichi naneun i seollemeun mot chamji hyeopjohaejwo, you gotta
Ch-ch-ch-ch-cherish my love (My love)
Eochapi neon nae ge, nae ge bunmyeong
Nal mallil sun eopseulgeol
Haneunimdo du son du bal deureotji joahae 'cause I wanna

Cherish, i seollem neon cherry on top
Cherish, nae yoksimi wonhae, you're mine
Alssongdalssong neoui pyojeonge gwaenhi bultaolla
Mujogeon jikjinhallae

Yeah, sueopsi domanggasseosseo, geujeo museowosseosseo
Ajik sijageseo gidarineun neoreul dugo
Pyeheo sogui morse code, oraen promise, promise
Iyureul moreudeon naui nunmul nae anemoia
You and I, yaksogui byeolbit araeseo
Meonji ssain uriui wanggwan apeseo
Yeonghone saegin kkumcheoreom dasi
Yeongwoni dwaejwo nareul bulleojwo

Gieokae machimnae chajeun answer
Naui miraeneun neoya
Say my name
Cheonnarui yaksokcheoreom neol sege aneul geoya
Machi déjà vu
Neon machi déjà vu
Say it (Say it), say it (Say it)
Say it, say it louder

Nareul taeuneun geu bulkkot bi soge
Yeonggeopgachi gin yeohaeng soge
Neowa nanun seulpeumeun my clarity
Neoui nunmul gyeoteuro
Oh, churakae oneun sunganedo neon all I need
Muneojin pyeheo teumui neowa naui place of promise
Ansigui daeji yeongwonui hoegwi
Nal gidaryeo jwotdeon neo

Gieokae machimnae chajeun answer
Naui miraeneun neoya (Oh)
Say my name
Cheonnarui yaksokcheoreom neol sege aneul geoya (No; geoya)
Machi déjà vu
Neon machi déjà vu
Say it (Say it), say it (Say it)
Say it, say it louder

Yaksokae (hae, yeah) myeot beoneul banbokaedo (Yeah)
Naui miraeneun neoya (neoya)
Bichui beire (Oh-oh)
Sinbucheoreom banjjagil neol sege aneul geoya (Oh-oh)
Machi déjà vu
Neon machi déjà vu (neoya)
Say it (Say it), say it (Say it)
Say it, say it louder (Say it louder)

Now I’m the case

 

Tummy trouble

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Spent my early morning at the hospital getting some stomach pain checked out, can you believe it? Now I’m on observation for the next week to make sure all’s good. I’ve been analyzing the situation though, and it feels like Newton’s Third Law, 'cause all that high-stress drama finally triggered an equal and opposite reaction from my tummy.

 

From today on, no more all-nighters and anything super stressful. But the thing is I have no idea how I’m gonna pull that off, ‘cause how am I even gonna avoid the high-stress stuff I actually like?

 

I guess I’ll just have to treat my own habits like a suspicious case file. After all, I read people for two reasons: to predict trouble and to outsmart it.

 

 

My analytical skills have been temporarily disabled

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It’s 2 in the afternoon and I’m just enjoying a cold bowl of strawberry yogurt and mango. I’m just gonna watch whatever makes me laugh ‘cause I am NOT about to analyze anything serious the whole week. Unless it's my Korean study session, but that’s just a 4-hour thing.

Watched the whole thing HAHAHA

Why don’t we pretend to be infected? People act like zombies and fool them in the movies.

…You know I’m shy. I can’t. HAHAHAHAHAHA

"But whatever she may be, I just want to be there for her."
– My Daughter is a Zombie

The Nightmare & The Patient

 

I’m still kinda in recovery mode, and my little sister hands me a card that says, ‘Don’t die on me. Sincerely, your nightmare.’ I was kinda dying laughing. She even stayed in my room to make sure I was okay and handed me some ponkan, banana, and mango. ♡

Anyways, we’re just brainstorming while I lie in bed, ‘cause she’s got a science high school interview on Tuesday. She builds the answers, and I overthink everything so she’s not caught off guard like a deer in headlights. Oh, and fun fact: little sis actually made a daring choice and turned down a scholarship from a private school, all because her heart’s set on a top-tier science school.

April 1 thoughts

 

An Yujin 

Yung nanood pa ‘ko ng “BANG BANG” dance practice ng Ive, kahit plano ko lang sana kumanta-kanta. Tinuloy ko na lang hanggang live performance haha!

I actually stumbled across 안유진 back in the Prison Life of Fools days. Iba yung radar niya sa patterns at behavior kaya ang bilis niya maka-pick up lalo na pag may off sa kilos ng tao. Ang galing din ng execution niya sa mafia game sa Crime Scene Zero. Pinaka-favorite ko yung part na yun. She can switch how she comes across, kinda like a human chameleon.

Anyways, back to singing along. ♡

I AM

Dareun muneul yeoreo ttara gal pillyoneun eopseo
Neon neoui gillo nan naui gillo, mm-mm
Haruharumada saegi dallajin neukkim
Balge bichi naneun gireul chaja

I'm on my way-ay-ay
Neon geunyang mideumyeon dwae
I'm on my way-ay-ay
Boineun geudaeroya

Neoneun nugungaui dreams come true
Jeil joeun eoneu narui déjà vu
Meomulgopeun eodingaui natseon view
I'll be far away

Eoneu gipeun bam
Gireul ileodo
Charari naraolla geureom nega jinaganeun daero girigeodeun
One, two, three, one, two, three, one, two, three
Fly up

I hope you'd be someone's dreams come true
Jeil joeun eoneu narui déjà vu
Meomulgopeun eodingaui natseon view
I'll be far away

That's my life is areumdaun galaxy
Be a writer, jangneuroneun fantasy
Naeil naege yeollineun geon big, big stage
So that is who I am

 

 

REBEL HEART

Sijageun hangsang da irun geotcheoreom
Endingeun machi seungnihan geotcheoreom
Geomnaeji anko maeumeul ssodeullae
Nae moyangdaero

Ije deo isang singyeong sseuji ana (deo isang)
Eodieseodo nae mameul jikigi
Ohae badeul ttaen jayue matgyeodullae
Da alge doel geonikka

So you can love me, hate me
You will never be, never be, never be me
Try me, I'll break free
You will never be, never be, never be me
We are rebels in our heart, rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart, kkeokkiji ana
We are rebels in our heart

Urin ttaro iyureul mutji anko
Seoroga pillyohal ttaega isseo
Geureon mami eotteon geonji jal algie
Yeongwoneul baraneun saibodan
Jigeumeul ihaehaejugo sipeo
We will always be the rebels

Come, join as who you are
We are rebels, we are one
I maeummaneuro
We are rebels, we are one
We are rebels in our heart, rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart, kkeokkiji ana
We are rebels in our heart

 

Heya

Haeya haeya haeya hanibe neol samkil ttaeya (tami tami na)
Haeya haeya haeya imi naega igin paeya (neol bomyeon tami tami na)
Haeya haeya haeya tteugeopge tteooreuneun haeya

Byeorangan hollin geu sungan Bite
Dan han beone nan neol hwirihwiri Catch ya

Deo nopi Keep it up Uh huh Happily ever after? Nope!
(Da da da dun dun)

Mot gidarindae mot dwaebeorin nae mami
Geop ttawin eopsneun cheokhaji ma neo gamhi (Oh Oh)

Meoreojyeo neon gani eochapi han ip geori (Hey)
Olhji chakhaji deo iriiri oryeom

Ne mam na jumyeon an jabameokji Right now
Nae baltop arae mwol sumgyeosseulji Watch out

Urin deo nopi haneure daheul geotcheoreom oechyeo neoreul kkaewo
Ollyeo bwa noryeobwa neon nae geonikka da
Jakku neol bomyeon tami tami na

Haeya haeya haeya hanibe neol samkil ttaeya (tami tami na)
Haeya haeya haeya imi naega igin paeya (neol bomyeon tami tami na)
Haeya haeya haeya tteugeopge tteooreuneun haeya
Byeorangan hollin geu sungan Bite
(Da da da dun dun)

BANG BANG

It’s a new scene
It’s aggressive
imi aracharyeossgessji
geuchi eonni

modeun somun sogui Problem
Yeah I’m ‘gyae’ji
byeoge buteun naui Picture
arae Wanted

Wake up jujeo haji malgo
dareun siseondeureun mwo geuri
I don’t give a swis! What you say
Yeah I be going out with a Bang
Bang Bang Bang Bang
Bang Bang Bang Bang

I be going out with a bang
Shaking my head
This is my way
Ayayaya I be going out with a bang

This is my day
bami ol ttae
Ayayaya I be going out with a

Bang Bang 4x

Me and studying are on a break till next week

My Korean language prep starts Monday. Speaking of something else, I really wanna try my hand at interpreting ’cause I’d love to be the person who helps two people finally get each other. But who knows? I’m pretty much open to anything rn.

 

I finally got around to watching these

"Human memory can be deceiving. We tend to erase all unfavorable memories."

The Hypnosis 

"When I meet someone outstanding, I soon get feelings of inadequacy that come bubbling up from deep down. But I didn’t feel any of that when I met him… There’s something very strange about that."

Lesson of the Evil

What’s the secret to success in this battle?
Love.

6/45

Afternoon’s just better with music on

 

🎧

Quèdìng qíshí hái bù quèdìng
Zhǐshì sì mù xiāngduì yǒu xīnjì
Bùjiàn nǐ huì xiǎng nǐ zài rénqún zhōng zhǎo nǐ
Zhǎodào hòu yòu jiǎzhuāng bù kàn nǐ

Tāmen shuō nǐ yǒudiǎn huài zhuī nǐ de nǚshēng dōu hěn shāngxīn
Kěshì wǒ yǒng bù huì zhuī wǒ yào ràng nǐ rěn bù zhù dòngxīn
Yào bǎochí mèilì hū yuǎn yòu hū jìn
Bùnéng suíyì xiànyīnqín

Yào xiàng mì táo bān tiánměi yuèdú gèng duō shūjí chōngshí zìjǐ gèng wánměi

Bùshì měi yīcì de yuēhuì nǐ yuē wǒ jiù chūxiàn
Bùshì měi yītòng de diànhuà nǐ dǎ lái wǒ dūhuì jiē

Àiqíng bùshì tóurù yuè kuài jiù kěyǐ shōuhuò gèng duō
Xǐhuān bèi nǐ sòng dào jiāmén dàn bùnéng qǐng nǐ hē kāfēi

2x

Qíshí wǒ kěwàng yǒu yītiān nénggòu tòumíng yīxiē
Xīnyì quánbù bèi nǐ zhīdào huì zhēnxī bù huì jiāo'ào

Qíshí wǒ zhēn de xǐhuān nǐ dàn hái méiyǒu ài shàng nǐ
Xīwàng nǐ jiùshì duì de rén néng hé wǒ bǐcǐ chǒng'ài

Yume mite high datta shizukana night oboeteru yone
Shounen yancha de kouka na omocha katte ageta ne
Jirijiri to, mado no soto
Anata ga matsunjya nai ka to
Akuma kakeru, tenshi awateru
Motto motomeru anata no koto

Anata new
Sono karada, demo blue
Kibun nano yo ooh, woah-oh
Zankoku na natsu o
Sou cool Ittemisete, nai rule
Kowareru tengoku ooh, woah-oh
Zankoku na natsu o zutto

Samayou yoh ni you nosa watashi shinde wa inai
Yattate muda date jidai no sei datte tameshite nai
Girari light, natsu wa knife
Girigiri anata matteiru no
Akuma kakeru, tenshi awateru
Chi o nagashitemo Shiranai no

Koubusazseki yopparatta
Nakijyakutte wa bar kara kaetta “Daijoubu” na wake ga nai
Usotsuku no iya anata to itai dake
Niwa no mon kara modotta
Natsu no yoga unmei kimeta
Sakenda no “tonikaku aishiteru, nante honto ni saiaku?”

Ano ne, watashi jitsuwa kidzui teru no
Hora, kimi ga itta koto
Amari kangaetai to omoenakute
Wasure teta ndakedo

Mōmokuteki ni mōdō-teki ni mōsō-teki ni ikite
Shōdō-tekina shōsō-tekina shōgyokutekina mama ja damedatta nda

Kitto, jinsei saigo no hi o mae ni omou nodarou
Zenbu, zenbu ii tarinakute oshīkedo
A~a, itsuka jinsei saigo no hi, kimi ga inai koto o
Motto, motto, motto
Motto, chanto itte

Neol eojjeomyeon joeulkka
Ireon mameun tto cheomira
Up and downi jom simhae
Jojeori jakku jal andwae
Hana hwaksilhan geon
I don't play the game


Uri jinjja byeolladae
Geunyang naega neomu joahae
Neon geugeol neomu jal algo
Nal jwirakpyeorakae
Nado machangajiingeol (Oh-oh-oh)

Urin cham byeollago isanghan saiya
Seororeul buseojige 
Geurigon tto kkyeoana

You got me feeling like a psycho, psycho
Uril bogo malhae jakku jakku
Dasi an bol deut ssaudagado
Buteo danini mallya
Ihaega an gandae
Utgijido antae

 

Maja Psycho, psycho
Seoro joa jungneun babo babo 
Neo eopsin eojireopgo seulpeojyeo
Giundo mak eopseoyo
Duri jal mannatdae
Hey, now we'll be okay

Hey trouble
Gyeonggo ttawin eopsi oneun neo
I'm original visual
Urin wollae iraesseo, yeah
Duryeopjineun ana
It's hot Let me just hop
Eotteoke neol darulkka? Oh, ooh, oh

Eojjeol jureul molla neoreul dallaego
Maeseopge ballo chado
Gakkeum naege miso jinneun neol
Eotteoke nokesseo oh, oh

Urin areumdapgo cham seulpeun saiya
Seororeul binnage hae 
Machi dalgwa gangcheoreom
Geurigon tto kkyeoana

Wae sarange mongmaeneun geonji
Eochapi ppeonhan gamjeongijana
Bunmyeong da anda mideotji
Algodo ppajin hamjeonginga bwa
Nado moreuge
When you call my name
Gaseum apeuge naui simjangi kungkung

It's like a polaroid love
Sarang, chonseureon geu gamjeong
Geunde nae gaseumi ttwieo
Wae na irae na

It's like a polaroid love
Nae tteutdaero doeji ana
Heunhan filterjocha eopseo
But I love that vibe

Neol hyanghan nae mameul yeogi
Bojeong eopsi saegineun geoya
Jeomjeom ttoryeothaejyeo gaji
I mameun sesang dan han jang ppuniya

Nado moreuge
When you call my name
Gaseum apeuge naui simjangi kungkung

Detached Observer?

 

12:36-ish. Kumain lang saglit ng spaghetti, tapos tumambay sa bintana habang umiinom ng iced latte. Anyways, these are the random things I ended up watching for no reason.

I’m always wondering, out of all the suspects you’ve proven innocent, have you ever doubted yourself, even just once, that you got it wrong?

— Who's The Suspect (2023)

Have you ever seen unhappy rich people?

Many of my friends are.

And have you seen happy poor people?

Lots of them too.

There you go. Money is not a human’s primary need…

 

This is what’s most important.
The ones we love.
— Grave torture 2024

Around 3 in the afternoon. Nakakanta ko naman yung chorus pero yung ibang part parang tongue twister pa haha

So night time now. Too lazy to write, so might as well share this Pinterest wallpaper. Yep, it’s on my laptop rn. Guess I just have a thing for vantage points that are worlds apart. ♡

'cause I’m like curious about everything
but I kinda don't want to be part of anything. ~(˘▾˘~)

Logic meets Lore

 

A leads to B like a cause and effect game

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I’ve got 10 films to deconstruct and a donut to distract me from my non-existent social life. Just joking haha. I’m just an observer, remember? I’m not gonna waste time finding out who the bad guy is, though, ’cause I’m more into seeing the dominoes fall than figuring out who did it. Like when A happens, B just comes next as a chain reaction.

 

 

 

Center of Gravity

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I’m into Sir Isaac Newton, Agatha Christie, and Uketsu. Most people have a whole lore for why they like someone but I just remember them first. Haha, lazy me. I’ve read a bunch of books, but the one I can’t forget is an 1860s novel by Wilkie Collins. I guess it’s special just because it’s burned into my memory. But I’m still about my first love. The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes is still my center of gravity.

 

Diary Entry

 

Sunday, March 22

I don’t know what to write today, but I’m gonna try to get some words down anyway…

My best friend saved my life with a bowl of tofu for lunch, and I also had her homemade egg sandwich. Then my little sister even shared some of her peanut butter, too.

Then to keep myself from getting too soft, I opened my laptop for a death game. The logic is a bit broken though, like, people are desperately trying to stay alive, but somehow the only thing actually dying is my attention span. It sucks when your brain isn't even trying and it still sniffed out the killer. I should’ve just grabbed a crayon and played connect-the-dots. 

 

Good thing I squeezed in 널 기다리며and Nine Puzzles. ♡

“There’s only one way for the evil to win. When innocent people do nothing.”
- Missing You

“We all become different at some point, just like how you’re different now compared to your 19-year-old self. We all go through certain life events and meet certain people along the way. What’s important… are the choices we make when we become different.”

Episode 3 of Nine Puzzles

Monday, March 23

I kinda wonder if I treat everyday stuff like mini experiments. ’Cause I find myself feeling like a hamster on a wheel and often like some kind of odd science project. And maybe that’s why I go through everyday moments three times. Once experientially, once analytically, and once in a diffuse state, like I’m just standing on a high-rise observation deck.

The little streets and houses below look like they belong in a board game or a playset, and I kinda see everyone down there as part of a live-action board game.

Had the best time singing As If It’s Your Last ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

Neo mwonde jakku saenggakna

Jajonsim sanghae aega ta

Eolguri tteugeobgo

gaseumeun gyesok ttwieo

Nae momi mamdaero andwae eojireowo

Neon han jumui morae gata

Jabhil deut jabhiji anha

Neon swibji anheun geol

geuraeseo deo kkeullyeo

Nae mami mamdaero andwae eoieopseo

 

Pre-Chorus:

Jigeum neoreul wonhaneun

Nae sumgyeori neukkyeojini

Neol barabogo isseodo

Missing you

Seotun nal won’t you set me free

Baby nal teojil geoscheoreom anajwo

Geuman saenggakhae mwoga geuri eoryeowo

Geojismalcheoreom

kiseuhaejwo naega neoege

Majimak sarangin geoscheoreom

 

Majimakcheoreom mamamajimakcheoreom

Majimak bamin geotcheoreom love

Majimakcheoleom mamamajimakcheoreom

Naeil ttawin eopsneun geotcheoreom

 

Uh Imma fall in love baby

You gon finna catch me

Uh give you all of this baby

Call me pretty and nasty

Cause we gonna get it

My love you can bet it on

Black we gon double

The stack on them whoa!

I be the Bonnie and

You be my Clyde

We ride or die

Xs and Os

 

Siganeun heulleoganeunde

Maeumman geuphaejiji

Nae sesangeun neo hanaman

Missing you

Seotun nal won’t you set me free

 

Baby nal teojil geotcheoreom anajwo

Geuman saenggakhae mwoga geuri eoryeowo

Geojismalcheoerom

kiseuhaejwo naega neoege

Majimak sarangin geotcheoreom

 

Majimakcheoreom mamamajimakcheoreom

Majimak bamin geotcheoreom love

Majimakcheoreom mamamajimakcheoreom

Naeil ttawin eopsneun geotcheoreom

 

One two three

Saeroun sijakiya

Jeoldae dwidorabojin anheul geonikka

Nal neoege deonjimyeon

Neoneun nal kkok jabajwo

Sesangeun uril kkeokkji moshal tenikka

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