I’m still kinda in recovery mode,
and my little sister hands me a card that says, ‘Don’t die on me. Sincerely,
your nightmare.’ I was kinda dying laughing. She even stayed in my room to make
sure I was okay and handed me some ponkan, banana, and mango.♡
Anyways, we’re just brainstorming
while I lie in bed, ‘cause she’s got a science high school interview on
Tuesday. She builds the answers, and I overthink everything so she’s not caught
off guard like a deer in headlights. Oh, and fun fact: little sis actually made
a daring choice and turned down a scholarship from a private school, all
because her heart’s set on a top-tier science school.
Yung nanood pa ‘ko ng “BANG BANG”
dance practice ng Ive, kahit plano ko lang sana kumanta-kanta. Tinuloy ko na
lang hanggang live performance haha!
I actually stumbled across 안유진 back in the Prison Life of Fools days. Iba yung radar niya
sa patterns at behavior kaya ang bilis niya maka-pick up lalo na pag may off sa
kilos ng tao. Ang galing din ng execution niya sa mafia game sa Crime Scene
Zero. Pinaka-favorite ko yung part na yun. She can switch how she comes
across, kinda like a human chameleon.
I hope you'd be someone's dreams come true
Jeil joeun eoneu narui déjà vu
Meomulgopeun eodingaui natseon view
I'll be far away
That's my life is areumdaun galaxy
Be a writer, jangneuroneun fantasy
Naeil naege yeollineun geon big, big stage
So that is who I am
REBEL HEART
Sijageun hangsang da irun
geotcheoreom
Endingeun machi seungnihan geotcheoreom
Geomnaeji anko maeumeul ssodeullae
Nae moyangdaero
Ije deo isang singyeong sseuji ana (deo isang)
Eodieseodo nae mameul jikigi
Ohae badeul ttaen jayue matgyeodullae
Da alge doel geonikka
So you can love me, hate me
You will never be, never be, never be me
Try me, I'll break free
You will never be, never be, never be me
We are rebels in our heart, rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart, kkeokkiji ana
We are rebels in our heart
Urin ttaro iyureul mutji anko
Seoroga pillyohal ttaega isseo
Geureon mami eotteon geonji jal algie
Yeongwoneul baraneun saibodan
Jigeumeul ihaehaejugo sipeo
We will always be the rebels
Come, join as who you are
We are rebels, we are one
I maeummaneuro
We are rebels, we are one
We are rebels in our heart, rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart
We are rebels in our heart, kkeokkiji ana
We are rebels in our heart
Wake up jujeo haji malgo
dareun siseondeureun mwo geuri
I don’t give a swis! What you say
Yeah I be going out with a Bang
Bang Bang Bang Bang
Bang Bang Bang Bang
I be going out with a bang
Shaking my head
This is my way
Ayayaya I be going out with a bang
This is my day
bami ol ttae
Ayayaya I be going out with a
Bang Bang 4x
Me and
studying are on a break till next week
My Korean language prep starts
Monday. Speaking of something else, I really wanna try my hand at interpreting
’cause I’d love to be the person who helps two people finally get each other. But
who knows? I’m pretty much open to anything rn.
I
finally got around to watching these
"Human memory can be
deceiving. We tend to erase all unfavorable memories."
The Hypnosis
"When I meet someone
outstanding, I soon get feelings of inadequacy that come bubbling up from deep
down. But I didn’t feel any of that when I met him… There’s something very
strange about that."
Lesson of the Evil
What’s the secret to success in
this battle?
Love.
Yume mite high datta shizukana
night oboeteru yone
Shounen yancha de kouka na omocha katte ageta ne
Jirijiri to, mado no soto
Anata ga matsunjya nai ka to
Akuma kakeru, tenshi awateru
Motto motomeru anata no koto
Anata new
Sono karada, demo blue
Kibun nano yo ooh, woah-oh
Zankoku na natsu o
Sou cool Ittemisete, nai rule
Kowareru tengoku ooh, woah-oh
Zankoku na natsu o zutto
Samayou yoh ni you nosa watashi shinde wa inai
Yattate muda date jidai no sei datte tameshite nai
Girari light, natsu wa knife
Girigiri anata matteiru no
Akuma kakeru, tenshi awateru
Chi o nagashitemo Shiranai no
Koubusazseki yopparatta
Nakijyakutte wa bar kara kaetta “Daijoubu” na wake ga nai
Usotsuku no iya anata to itai dake
Niwa no mon kara modotta
Natsu no yoga unmei kimeta
Sakenda no “tonikaku aishiteru, nante honto ni saiaku?”
Ano ne, watashi jitsuwa kidzui
teru no
Hora, kimi ga itta koto
Amari kangaetai to omoenakute
Wasure teta ndakedo
Mōmokuteki ni mōdō-teki ni mōsō-teki ni ikite
Shōdō-tekina shōsō-tekina shōgyokutekina mama ja damedatta nda
Kitto, jinsei saigo no hi o mae ni omou nodarou
Zenbu, zenbu ii tarinakute oshīkedo
A~a, itsuka jinsei saigo no hi, kimi ga inai koto o
Motto, motto, motto
Motto, chanto itte
Neol eojjeomyeon joeulkka
Ireon mameun tto cheomira
Up and downi jom simhae
Jojeori jakku jal andwae
Hana hwaksilhan geon
I don't play the game
Uri jinjja byeolladae
Geunyang naega neomu joahae
Neon geugeol neomu jal algo
Nal jwirakpyeorakae
Nado machangajiingeol (Oh-oh-oh)
Urin cham byeollago isanghan saiya
Seororeul buseojige
Geurigon tto kkyeoana
You got me feeling like a psycho, psycho
Uril bogo malhae jakku jakku
Dasi an bol deut ssaudagado
Buteo danini mallya
Ihaega an gandae
Utgijido antae
Maja Psycho, psycho
Seoro joa jungneun babo babo
Neo eopsin eojireopgo seulpeojyeo
Giundo mak eopseoyo
Duri jal mannatdae
Hey, now we'll be okay
Hey trouble
Gyeonggo ttawin eopsi oneun neo
I'm original visual
Urin wollae iraesseo, yeah
Duryeopjineun ana
It's hot Let me just hop
Eotteoke neol darulkka? Oh, ooh, oh
Urin areumdapgo cham seulpeun saiya
Seororeul binnage hae
Machi dalgwa gangcheoreom
Geurigon tto kkyeoana
Wae sarange mongmaeneun
geonji
Eochapi ppeonhan gamjeongijana
Bunmyeong da anda mideotji
Algodo ppajin hamjeonginga bwa
Nado moreuge
When you call my name
Gaseum apeuge naui simjangi kungkung
It's like a polaroid love
Sarang, chonseureon geu gamjeong
Geunde nae gaseumi ttwieo
Wae na irae na
It's like a polaroid love
Nae tteutdaero doeji ana
Heunhan filterjocha eopseo
But I love that vibe
Neol hyanghan nae mameul yeogi
Bojeong eopsi saegineun geoya
Jeomjeom ttoryeothaejyeo gaji
I mameun sesang dan han jang ppuniya
Nado moreuge
When you call my name
Gaseum apeuge naui simjangi kungkung
12:36-ish. Kumain lang
saglit ng spaghetti, tapos tumambay sa bintana habang umiinom ng iced latte. Anyways,
these are the random things I ended up watching for no reason.
I’m always wondering, out of all
the suspects you’ve proven innocent, have you ever doubted yourself, even just
once, that you got it wrong?
—
Who's The Suspect (2023)
Have you ever seen unhappy rich
people?
Many of my friends are.
And have you seen happy poor people?
Lots of them too.
There you go. Money is not a human’s primary need…
This is what’s most important.
The ones we love. —
Grave torture 2024
Around 3 in the afternoon. Nakakanta ko naman yung chorus pero yung ibang part parang tongue twister pa haha
So night time now. Too lazy to
write, so might as well share this Pinterest wallpaper. Yep, it’s on my laptop
rn. Guess I just have a thing for vantage points that are worlds apart. ♡
'cause I’m like curious about
everything but I kinda don't want to be part of anything. ~(˘▾˘~)
I’ve got 10 films to deconstruct and a donut to distract me from my
non-existent social life. Just joking haha. I’m just an observer, remember? I’m
not gonna waste time finding out who the bad guy is, though, ’cause I’m more
into seeing the dominoes fall than figuring out who did it. Like when A
happens, B just comes next as a chain reaction.
Center
of Gravity
I’m into Sir Isaac Newton, Agatha Christie, and Uketsu. Most people have a
whole lore for why they like someone but I just remember them first. Haha, lazy
me. I’ve read a bunch of books, but the one I can’t forget is an 1860s novel by
Wilkie Collins. I guess it’s special just because it’s burned into my memory. But
I’m still about my first love. The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes is still my center
of gravity.
I don’t know what to write today,
but I’m gonna try to get some words down anyway…
My best friend saved my life with
a bowl of tofu for lunch, and I also had her homemade egg sandwich. Then my
little sister even shared some of her peanut butter, too.
Then to keep myself from getting
too soft, I opened my laptop for a death game. The logic is a bit broken
though, like, people are desperately trying to stay alive, but somehow the only
thing actually dying is my attention span. It sucks when your brain isn't even
trying and it still sniffed out the killer. I should’ve just grabbed a crayon
and played connect-the-dots.
Good thing I squeezed in 널기다리며and
Nine Puzzles.♡
“There’s only one way
for the evil to win. When innocent people do nothing.” - Missing You
“We all become different at some
point, just like how you’re different now compared to your 19-year-old self. We
all go through certain life events and meet certain people along the way.
What’s important… are the choices we make when we become different.”
Episode 3 of Nine Puzzles
Monday,
March 23
I kinda wonder if I treat everyday
stuff like mini experiments. ’Cause I find myself feeling like a hamster on a
wheel and often like some kind of odd science project.And
maybe that’s why I go through everyday moments three times. Once
experientially, once analytically, and once in a diffuse state, like I’m just
standing on a high-rise observation deck.
The little streets and houses
below look like they belong in a board game or a playset, and I kinda see
everyone down there as part of a live-action board game.
Had the best time singing As If
It’s Your Last ♡♡♡♡♡
My little sister’s not around
right now, so I’m just munching on popcorn while
a random Japanese playlist is on. Nakikinig
lang kahit hindi naman maintindihan habang subo nang subo ng popcorn.I’m
sort of thinking about those drafts I still gotta sort, or maybe not. I just
write random stuff for fun but also kinda wanna read them years later and just
laugh at myself.
the
magic trick and the failed plan
I.
These two friends are both lying to the group but like, each one’s got their
own style. One’s beautiful and confident, and somehow everyone forgets how to
think. The other one is clever and sneaky, hinting at stuff so someone else
looks bad. And does anyone even realize they’ve been tricked?
Disturbingly, no one’s even
thinking twice about whether it’s true. Just like kids who say I don’t know
instead of actually trying to find their shoes.
II.
I don’t like it when things start feeling like an interrogation, and out of
nowhere everyone’s running around like it’s PE class. It’s like they weren’t
even ready when the suspect suddenly ran off. Wouldn’t it make more sense to
plan A, B, C and maybe D, just in case? I even saw a case where the suspect
spat directly in the officer’s face. Do we honestly expect suspects to mind
their manners? Let’s just say the clever ones think a few moves ahead than run
around like headless chickens, or, god forbid, catch some spit.
I was just browsing through some
languages to listen to for fun. Then, my best friend randomly messaged me
asking for the lowdown on cervical spondylosis for someone she knows. So I
decided to make her a fun presentation 'cause I’m her go-to human Google hehe.
A few weeks back, she handed me a
bunch of books. I got everything from a dictionary, a thesaurus, and a
Wordfinder, to stuff on world history, different countries, and even everything
out there in space.
It’s not just books and brainy
stuff, though.
So, what do we do when we wanna
have fun? We usually just eat snacks and watch Dangerous Roads Around the World.
She’s all in at first, then next thing I know she’s already asleep. Though when
we do a bit of cleaning or some gardening, I’m outta there haha.
We’re sort of like magnets with
opposite poles, but we blend really well.♡
I I kinda flopped my own experiment ‘cause I
really thought I’d react differently yesterday. Who’d have thought I’m not as
immune as I thought, whoops. At least it gave me something to laugh about,
kinda like I was watching myself do dumb stuff. So how do you just get over
your own screw-ups then?
II Now that I’ve actually seen how it works, the second go might be
more fun now that I know the trick.
As for how I’m feeling right now,
um, Idk exactly, but it’s kinda like when you cry a lot but you keep it low-key
so nobody finds out. Then you wake up the next day with your eyes all puffy,
and somehow your heart feels better. That’s as close as I can get to describing
the feeling.
Kumakain lang ako ng turon tapos kung anu-ano na ang napuntahan ko
online, napadpad tuloy ako sa thought experiment na ’to kahapon na parang
paulit-ulit na lang sa utak ko.
Here’s how it goes:
Imagine you’re sitting on this chair, which is being controlled by someone and
your life is suddenly in danger.
However, you’re holding a button
in your hand. The button is connected to a wire at the other end. It leads to a
place you can’t see.
Once the button is pressed, a
stranger will die.
Will you press the button or not?
Lyza can figure out my answer
faster than anyone, cause she knows most of the weird stuff about me. (￣▽￣)／
I always think of the universe in
a video game sort of way. Think of it like playing Super Mario minus the Game
Over screen. You know how, as kids, we’d keep playing just to see what the next
level looked like? It’s kind of like that with the universe. We’re never, ever
going to run out of things to discover.
Eh di pinunasan ko na lang. Like,
what else was I gonna do? Mag-iiyak sa sahig? You
know how easy it is to lose your cool over trivial stuff? I’m getting kinda
good at just shrugging it off now. I was like, whatever, and just ate my peanut
butter sandwich. Still rolled my eyes though 🤪
Observing
the Observer
When I sit down to watch
something, I’m not just watching what’s going on. I’m also hyper-aware of my
own reactions to it. Like, what even is this feeling? Why did that suddenly set
me off? Then I’m like, would I even survive that I Saw the Devil taxi
scene? Bold of me to assume, though. Realistically, I’d be out before I even
said hello.
Just humming and singing along ( ˘▽˘)っ♪♫
Tam-mai dtong pen ter kon tee mai keuy rak chan
Tam-mai jai chan yang fang yoo kae ter
Tat jai sak gee krang, soot-tai gor yang pen ter
Kon tee tam hai chan tang yim lae mee nam-ta
Ying pa-ya-yam tao-rai, ying tam hai ter ram-kan
Gor roo dee tang nan, tae jai chan tam yang-rai
Kon man rak pai laew, ja hai feun jai yang-rai wai
Kae kit ja tat jai, nam-ta man gor lai... ok ma
Chorus:
Kon mee pen lan, tam-mai jai chan teung dtong lueak ter
Kon tee mai keuy hen kwam sam-kan nai tua chan loey
Yak ja tat jai lop ter ok pai, tae gor tam mai keuy dai loey
Meuan dohn kam-sap tee dtong long-oei hai rak dai kae ter
Kon tee kao rak, tae jai glap mai rak Kon tee mai rak, pai rak kao
tam-mai
Ying pa-ya-yam tao-rai, ying tam hai ter ram-kan
Gor roo dee tang nan, tae jai chan tam yang-rai
Kon man rak pai laew, ja hai feun jai yang-rai wai
