i just got distracted

 

Today I spent a good few minutes just looking at my wall instead of doing literally anything useful. I was just staring at it when I realized I’ve basically mapped out the whole world in front of me. So my wall is a mashup of math, the universe, and geography, plus anatomy stuff because skeletons and tummies are cool. And of course, there’s that note from my little sis calling herself my 'nightmare.' LMAO

Of course I had to sing along haha (＾▽＾)♪

새로운 color의 algorithm
내 안을 투영한 my prism
무한을 펼쳐, 이 감정은 violet
숨결처럼 일렁거려

[Pre-Chorus]
비춰진 미로 같은 view

[Chorus]
Not bad, 불완전한 느낌
비대칭한 선은 beautiful
Let's take, 오묘한 빛의 신기루 같은 silhouette
아득히 펼쳐지는 걸
(Oh, no) 시선 끝은 언제나 odd

[Post-Chorus]
Let's make something out of nothing (Nothing, nothing, nothing)
Let's make something super beautiful (Beautiful)
Let's take, 깨어난 순간 날 이끈 이 마음은 shine
시선 끝은 언제나 odd

[Verse 2]
지나온 나의 페이지 속
쏟아져버린 물감의 draw
특별한 shape of heart, 형용할 수 없어
이름이 없는 emotion

 

[Pre-Chorus]
비현실적인 scene이 blow

[Chorus]
Not bad, 불완전한 느낌
비대칭한 선은 beautiful
Let's take, 오묘한 빛의 신기루 같은 silhouette
아득히 펼쳐지는 걸

[Post-Chorus]
Let's make something out of nothing (Nothing, nothing, nothing)
Let's make something super beautiful (Beautiful)
Let's take 깨어난 순간 날 이끈 이 마음은 shine
(Oh, no) 시선 끝은 언제나 odd

[Bridge]
피어난 my jamais vu (Mm)
파고든 낯선 기분 (Mm)
영롱한 이 감각들이
바로 눈앞에

[Chorus]
Bright wave, 눈이 부신 미지
자유로운 vibe, wonderful
That's great, 설렘이 번진 발끝이 여는 풍경에
내게 닿은 눈빛은 odd

[Post-Chorus]
Let's make something out of nothing (Ooh)
Let's make something super beautiful (Beautiful; Super beautiful)
Let's take, 오묘한 빛의 신기루 같은 silhouette
아득히 펼쳐지는 걸 (Oh)

pragmatically sentimental

 

Nibbling on some corn rn while I watch the rain.

I’m already 8 days into my meds, and I’m finally not feeling like absolute garbage. I think it’s also because I’ve been intentionally staying away from anything I don’t have the energy to entertain.

Anyways, I’m also putting together some new study hacks for Elyza. She’s heading into 7th grade, so I just wanna help her learn well without her turning study time into therapy time haha. I kinda go Dr. Justin Sung mode whenever I help her, so she actually gets how things fit together instead of just memorizing things the old-fashioned way.

It’s 5:48 PM rn

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Bought an ice cream soda and some chips ‘cause I’m gonna watch something crime-related or undercover spy-ish first, then nerd out on longevity and cellular biology books. Not sure what that says about me though, but I feel like my little sis would take one look at my entertainment choices and just sigh haha

A beautiful realization to have over a plate of pork BBQ

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8:10 in the evening. I was eating when I suddenly had this thought like…

I kinda wanna be the kind of friend who doesn’t make people feel small or point out what they don’t have, but the one who actually spots what’s already good in them and kinda helps them see it too.

For a moment, it felt like I was back in 2017.

I was asked to help a group of newbies. And there was this girl who was so self-conscious about her voice and kind of lost on what she was doing. And I just said her voice actually sounded really strong and authoritative. She lit up after that.

Now that I think about it, she had that Jessica Pearson vibe from Suits. 🤍






 

new favorite unlocked

 

Do you ever just open YouTube and watch whatever then realize you’ve accidentally turned into a backup dancer, or just like me, a total fan?

Watch, uh (Hey), I'ma bite back, uh
Jiteun eodumi magaseol ttaen, uh
Han georeum apeuro naradeun, it's bad
Sarajin feedback, sijakdoen code black, huh

Gipeoga, hollanseureoun bam
Angmongeun tto jitge beonjyeoga
Mwongal sumgiryeogo hae, I got it, I got it
Hondoneul tago deopchyeo, killing like

Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
'Cause I wanna see, I wanna see truly
Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Naege dagawa, dagawa

I'ma get it done
Neol hyanghae gyeonwo, get it, gone 
Ijen neol kkeunnae, bеtter run
Kkeuteul morеuneun neowa na, you gonna, gonna
Kkaeteuryeo geochimeopsi done (Go way up, way up)
Full shot, pull it up, Armageddon

I'ma get 'em
Shoot
I'ma get 'em

Hey, ya
Tto dareun na
Uril makji ma
We never play nice (Shoot)
Uh, wanbyeokan pair, neon ttokgateun soul
Three to get ready, urin shoot and go
Geop eopsi nubyeo
Nal ikkeuneun way, yeah, yeah

Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Yes, I'm gonna see, I'm gonna see, want it
Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Dabi deullyeowa, deullyeowa

I'ma get it done
Neol hyanghae gyeonwo, get it, gone 
Ijen neol kkeunnae, better run
Kkeuteul moreuneun neowa na, you gonna, gonna (Uh)
Kkaeteuryeo geochimeopsi done (Go way up, way up)
Full shot, pull it up, Armageddon

I'ma get 'em

Tto
Eodumeul moranaego
Sijageul kkotpiun neowa naui story
Deo wanbyeokaejin uri
Jeonguihae ijen
Namanui "complete"
Nae modeun geol ikkeureo, do it all myself
Wanjeonhan nareul irwonae, ooh (Drop)

Throw it back, throw it back, throw it back
Born like a queen, born like a king, yeah 
Throw it back, throw it back, throw it back

Awww

 

She's actually the cutest ever

Got woken up twice by my little sis. She even tried to feed me a gummy bear haha. Told her I can’t ‘cause of my tummy. Then she came back with coffee cake for me awww ♡

I’m feeling kinda low energy today so I mostly just listened to K-pop and whatever I could find to watch.

Hoesaekbiche gatyeobeorin neverland

We know how it ends

Tto uimi eopsi dolgodoneun everyday

[Pre-Chorus]

Deoneun gal su eopge, yeogi maemdolge hae

Naega sarajin kkumsoge

Kkeuteomneun chetbakwi ullineun meari

Byeogeul neomeo let's break this fate

[Chorus]

Nal dwiheundeuneun heart, now I run away

Doraseo nan imi eoseo hold my hand

Hangeoreum move, meolli jeo huimihan view, pureun bicheul ttara nal

Kkeureodanggyeo neon now I run away, I run away

Meomchwobeorin sigan sok
Han chi apdo al su eomneun naeireun
Nal duryeopge hae
Amugeotdo hal su eopdeon me and you
Oh, I try all night
Simjangui tteollimeul jjocha
Urimanui dareun yeojeongeul chaja
Tteona

Repeat Chorus

Jeo meon uju eodinga

Byeolbitdeurui synchronize

Pyeonghaenghaneun neowa na

Urin seorol arabwa

In the space, saegeul deotchilhae ga like Picasso

In the frame, wanseongdoeneun geurim, machi Van Gogh

Adeukan eodumdo museopji aneun geol

Ne gyeote isseunikka

[Pre-Chorus]

Eodumi jiteojil ttaen

Urin seororeul neukkyeo

Ttaseuhi binna always

[Chorus]

I'll make the stars align

Sеororeul inneun han ssangui byeol

Hamkkеramyeon nan duryeopji ana

I'll make you, make you feel alright

Kkeotteuriji aneul shining light 

Uriga jikyeonaen bit

Yeogi banjjagigo isseo

Yeah, we'll make a starry night

Cheot mannameun once upon a time

I remember, kkamppagideon du nunapui saehayateon bit

Jageun tanseong then I called ya

Volumeeul nopin playlist

Enjineul kyeoneun spaceship

Geu eodideun joa, we gon' be alright

Yeah, yeah, eoneusae jeo meolli sarajineun Question 

Eoreobutdeon mameul nogin neoui *Passion*

 

[Pre-Chorus]
Du soneul matjabeun chae
Urin seororeul neukkyeo
Cheoncheonhi binnan seollem (Oh)

[Chorus]
I'll make the stars align
Seororeul inneun han ssangui byeol
Hamkkeramyeon (hamkkeramyeon) nan duryeopji ana
I'll make you, make you feel alright 
Kkeotteuriji aneul shining light 
Uriga jikyeonaen bit
Yeogi banjjagigo isseo
Yeah, we'll make a starry night

Baraneun dan hana 
Only want you here for life 
Up and outer space

[Chorus]
You make the stars align
Seororeul inneun han ssangui byeol
Ne gyeochiramyeon nan duryeopji ana (Oh, oh)
I'll make you, make you feel alright
Yeongwonhi nunbusil shining light
Uriga jikyeonael bit
Yeogi banjjagigo isseo
Yeah, we'll make a starry night

Starry night, starry night
Starry night, starry night
Starry night, starry night
Urideurui seollemeul sunoa
Make a starry night

These parts of Jang Wonyoung’s interview were
the real standouts for me 👑

장도연: When do you love yourself?

장원영: When I’m not afraid of anything. I love when I’m not afraid to do something.

✿

Even if people say something hurtful, if it’s not true for me, I don’t get offended. If it’s not true for me, it’s unrelated to me. If it is true, and if it’s something I should improve on, I just have to fix it.

♡

It’s impossible to not get offended at all. But even when I’m offended,  I try to take it in a healthy way and try not to lose myself. Also, whatever you say will all come back to you.

 

장도연: When younger idols come up to you to share their difficulties, is there something you’d like to tell them?

장원영: I really want to tell them that even though work is important, you are the most important. So think what makes you the most happy.