Saturday, April 18, 2026

down the rabbit hole

 

It’s 5:40 pm. I’m upstairs at the dining table reading my sister’s astronomy and space encyclopedia. Still in the middle of it but I’m enjoying it like the ones I read earlier. Might also read Signal 100 for half an hour then switch to a movie. But I might just keep reading for fun.



“Solitude was the essential part of his genius.”

Isaac Newton (2003) by James Gleick






I don’t know what’s the matter with people: they don’t learn by understanding; they learn by some other way–by rote, or something.

"Surely You're Joking, Mr. Feynman!": Adventures of a Curious Character






The ancient Egyptians created the first 365 day solar calendar. The ancient Romans made adjustments and added one extra day every four years.

 

In 1582, Pope Gregory XIII (the 13th) corrected the problems. He ordered that three leap years should be skipped every 400 years. We use the Gregorian calendar today, named for Pope Gregory.

— Rourke's World of Science Encyclopedia: Volume 7: Astronomy and Space






Suppose three men can paint three fences in three hours. How long would it take one man to paint one fence? It’s tempting to blurt out “one hour.”



The correct answer is three hours.

— The Joy of x by Steven Strogatz





“There are 100 signals to activate your suicide.”

— Arata Miyatsuki







Friday, April 17, 2026

i just got distracted

 

Today I spent a good few minutes just looking at my wall instead of doing literally anything useful. I was just staring at it when I realized I’ve basically mapped out the whole world in front of me. So my wall is a mashup of math, the universe, and geography, plus anatomy stuff because skeletons and tummies are cool. And of course, there’s that note from my little sis calling herself my 'nightmare.' LMAO
















Of course I had to sing along haha ()



μƒˆλ‘œμš΄ color의 algorithm
λ‚΄ μ•ˆμ„ νˆ¬μ˜ν•œ my prism
λ¬΄ν•œμ„ 펼쳐, 이 감정은 violet
숨결처럼 일렁거렀

[Pre-Chorus]
λΉ„μΆ°μ§„ 미둜 같은 view

[Chorus]
Not bad,
λΆˆμ™„μ „ν•œ λŠλ‚Œ
λΉ„λŒ€μΉ­ν•œ 선은 beautiful
Let's take,
μ˜€λ¬˜ν•œ λΉ›μ˜ 신기루 같은 silhouette
μ•„λ“νžˆ νŽΌμ³μ§€λŠ” κ±Έ
(Oh, no)
μ‹œμ„  끝은 μ–Έμ œλ‚˜ odd

[Post-Chorus]
Let's make something out of nothing (Nothing, nothing, nothing)
Let's make something super beautiful (Beautiful)
Let's take,
κΉ¨μ–΄λ‚œ μˆœκ°„ λ‚  이끈 이 λ§ˆμŒμ€ shine
μ‹œμ„  끝은 μ–Έμ œλ‚˜ odd

[Verse 2]
μ§€λ‚˜μ˜¨ λ‚˜μ˜ νŽ˜μ΄μ§€ 속
μŸμ•„μ Έλ²„λ¦° 물감의 draw
νŠΉλ³„ν•œ shape of heart, ν˜•μš©ν•  수 μ—†μ–΄
이름이 μ—†λŠ” emotion

 

[Pre-Chorus]
λΉ„ν˜„μ‹€μ μΈ scene이 blow

[Chorus]
Not bad,
λΆˆμ™„μ „ν•œ λŠλ‚Œ
λΉ„λŒ€μΉ­ν•œ 선은 beautiful
Let's take,
μ˜€λ¬˜ν•œ λΉ›μ˜ 신기루 같은 silhouette
μ•„λ“νžˆ νŽΌμ³μ§€λŠ” κ±Έ

[Post-Chorus]
Let's make something out of nothing (Nothing, nothing, nothing)
Let's make something super beautiful (Beautiful)
Let's take
κΉ¨μ–΄λ‚œ μˆœκ°„ λ‚  이끈 이 λ§ˆμŒμ€ shine
(Oh, no)
μ‹œμ„  끝은 μ–Έμ œλ‚˜ odd

[Bridge]
ν”Όμ–΄λ‚œ my jamais vu (Mm)
νŒŒκ³ λ“  λ‚―μ„  κΈ°λΆ„ (Mm)
μ˜λ‘±ν•œ 이 감각듀이
λ°”λ‘œ λˆˆμ•žμ—

[Chorus]
Bright wave,
눈이 λΆ€μ‹  λ―Έμ§€
자유둜운 vibe, wonderful
That's great,
μ„€λ ˜μ΄ λ²ˆμ§„ 발끝이 μ—¬λŠ” 풍경에
λ‚΄κ²Œ 닿은 λˆˆλΉ›μ€ odd

[Post-Chorus]
Let's make something out of nothing (Ooh)
Let's make something super beautiful (Beautiful; Super beautiful)
Let's take,
μ˜€λ¬˜ν•œ λΉ›μ˜ 신기루 같은 silhouette
μ•„λ“νžˆ νŽΌμ³μ§€λŠ” κ±Έ (Oh)






Wednesday, April 15, 2026

pragmatically sentimental

 


Nibbling on some corn rn while I watch the rain.

I’m already 8 days into my meds, and I’m finally not feeling like absolute garbage. I think it’s also because I’ve been intentionally staying away from anything I don’t have the energy to entertain.

Anyways, I’m also putting together some new study hacks for Elyza. She’s heading into 7th grade, so I just wanna help her learn well without her turning study time into therapy time haha. I kinda go Dr. Justin Sung mode whenever I help her, so she actually gets how things fit together instead of just memorizing things the old-fashioned way.




It’s 5:48 PM rn


Bought an ice cream soda and some chips ‘cause I’m gonna watch something crime-related or undercover spy-ish first, then nerd out on longevity and cellular biology books. Not sure what that says about me though, but I feel like my little sis would take one look at my entertainment choices and just sigh haha




A beautiful realization to have over a plate of pork BBQ


8:10 in the evening. I was eating when I suddenly had this thought like…

I kinda wanna be the kind of friend who doesn’t make people feel small or point out what they don’t have, but the one who actually spots what’s already good in them and kinda helps them see it too.

For a moment, it felt like I was back in 2017.

I was asked to help a group of newbies. And there was this girl who was so self-conscious about her voice and kind of lost on what she was doing. And I just said her voice actually sounded really strong and authoritative. She lit up after that.

Now that I think about it, she had that Jessica Pearson vibe from Suits.
🀍






 





Friday, April 10, 2026

new favorite unlocked

 

Do you ever just open YouTube and watch whatever then realize you’ve accidentally turned into a backup dancer, or just like me, a total fan?











Watch, uh (Hey), I'ma bite back, uh
Jiteun eodumi magaseol ttaen, uh
Han georeum apeuro naradeun, it's bad
Sarajin feedback, sijakdoen code black, huh

Gipeoga, hollanseureoun bam
Angmongeun tto jitge beonjyeoga
Mwongal sumgiryeogo hae, I got it, I got it
Hondoneul tago deopchyeo, killing like

Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
'Cause I wanna see, I wanna see truly
Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Naege dagawa, dagawa

I'ma get it done
Neol hyanghae gyeonwo, get it, gone 
Ijen neol kkeunnae, bΠ΅tter run
Kkeuteul morΠ΅uneun neowa na, you gonna, gonna
Kkaeteuryeo geochimeopsi done (Go way up, way up)
Full shot, pull it up, Armageddon


I'ma get 'em
Shoot
I'ma get 'em

Hey, ya
Tto dareun na
Uril makji ma
We never play nice (Shoot)
Uh, wanbyeokan pair, neon ttokgateun soul
Three to get ready, urin shoot and go
Geop eopsi nubyeo
Nal ikkeuneun way, yeah, yeah

Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Yes, I'm gonna see, I'm gonna see, want it
Bang, chitty, bang, bang, chitty, bang, bang
Dabi deullyeowa, deullyeowa

I'ma get it done
Neol hyanghae gyeonwo, get it, gone 
Ijen neol kkeunnae, better run
Kkeuteul moreuneun neowa na, you gonna, gonna (Uh)
Kkaeteuryeo geochimeopsi done (Go way up, way up)
Full shot, pull it up, Armageddon


I'ma get 'em

Tto
Eodumeul moranaego
Sijageul kkotpiun neowa naui story
Deo wanbyeokaejin uri
Jeonguihae ijen
Namanui "complete"
Nae modeun geol ikkeureo, do it all myself
Wanjeonhan nareul irwonae, ooh (Drop)

Throw it back, throw it back, throw it back
Born like a queen, born like a king, yeah 
Throw it back, throw it back, throw it back










down the rabbit hole

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