I was
scrolling through Facebook and stumbled across my first crush from freshman
year. I had to stop and squint at the screen for a sec. I get that it’s been
ages since then, but the change was so insane I had to double-check who I was
looking at. I’m still trying to process how two people the same age can look
decades apart.
Then I
remembered David Sinclair talking about biological age vs chronological age, and
suddenly I felt like I got hit with a random lecture in the middle of
scrolling. You know how some people’s age just doesn’t match their face, while
others look nothing like how young they say they are lol.
I’ve resorted
to just guessing their age like I’m betting on a horse I’ve never seen.
I’ve got rain
sounds playing, and I’m really excited to read anything about the universe for
around four hours. After that, I’m gonna watch a documentary.
Also,
romanticizing the idea of a nighttime routine so I actually do it haha. I’ll go
for a walk, maybe an hour or two, then read about Isaac Newton before I get
yeeted into sleep.
Thursday,
April 23
I. I was just scrolling Pinterest for science and physics experiments when out
of nowhere my little sis showed up with her laptop and started showing me her
games like I was a visitor. She knows gaming isn’t my thing but ignores it,
even making me sit through her Adopt Me and Bloxburg gameplay and, for the
fifth time, making me choose a Forsaken character again, not that I volunteered
or anything.
Then I went
into sleep mode the whole afternoon, like my energy got nerfed by my little sis
haha
II.
Got a glass of coke and some chicken barbecue for dinner thanks to my best
friend. I kinda feel like watching documentaries now, like I suddenly became
productive after sleeping the whole day.
Wednesday,
April 22
Laws
of sibling dynamics 11:33 in the morning. I was drinking a probiotic drink like it’s
makgeolli for some reason while my little sis had this blueberry, almond,
banana, apple smoothie. She didn’t like it so now I’ve got two drinks. Parang
nung kumain siya ng turon yung balat lang gusto niya, kaya sakin napunta yung
saging (╯°□°）╯
So now I’m on
my way to buy graham crackers since she’s making blueberry cheesecake but I’m
also hiding my ice cream.
Sibling
entropy Exactly 3:10. I had like 16 books lined up to
read for 15 or 30 minutes each, and she even brought a Harry Potter book. We
didn't read anything at all ’cause kiddo never runs out of stuff to say. Is she
ever gonna stop talking? I wish the floor would just open up and swallow me
haha
Low power mode Almost 5 pm. I was gonna read but now I’m like
maybe I’ll just watch for now. Heavy cases feel a little overwhelming at the
moment, and I’m still organizing my Korean tracker anyway. I’ve got till
Saturday, so I’ll just read and watch stuff for now before I start the next 60
days that are basically my next evolution stage.
If I’m
leaving my solitude it better be a masterpiece
1:25 in the afternoon. Listening
to Vivaldi while I sit with the thought of a friend. Maybe I should just reach
out to her?
Or write about Egypt after reading something that didn’t really explain what
makes Egypt Egypt. It’s like, if you’re already that far from home, why spend
your time on stuff that feels the same as everywhere else? Why fly to Egypt if
you’re just gonna ignore thousands of years of history, especially its
mathematical foundations?
If I were undercover, I’d note the
shisha and the everyday things happening in between that most tourists probably
miss. But I’m just a low-budget human. I better see the stuff that actually
explains why it was one of the greatest empires to ever exist.
I just do
what I enjoy
I don’t really pay attention to how many books
I get through in a month or a year or whatever, like how I’ve never really
cared about laundry or friend counts or who I even talk to.
Anyways, I’m gonna grab some bread and ice cream for my lil sis.
A Thought
That Spiraled
Around 7 p.m. I came across
something earlier and started thinking, what do I actually like?
Solitude. Piecing together
patterns. Looking at things from a bird’s eye view. And that feeling when I
finally understand something, like when Holmes explains something to Watson and
he finally gets what was obvious the whole time. And then, how the universe
works. ‘Cause to me, the universe is just like the biggest cold case out there.
Based on that, what MBTI would you
say I am?
I’m fine with whatever. I’m just kind of watching my mind the way a kid watches
clouds change shape.
Actually eating lunch and reading
Humble Pie and The Maths That Made Us. Could have finished these months ago but
there’s no reason to rush so I don’t.
It’s like eating 8 different kinds of candy
Told my little sis I got like 8
more math books now, didn’t tell her about the donuts and ice cream soda though
hehe. Thought I’d read 30 minutes each before I handle some serious stuff that
may or may not be serious. If you ask me why I read this stuff, I don’t even
know anymore. Curiosity, maybe. Or I just turn what I read into stories for my
little sis.
Quest
Abandoned
It is almost 11 o’clock. Better to
just sleep before I start reading the same sentence for like, the 10th time now
haha.
Just put on my go-to white shirt and
super comfy track pants ’cause I’m heading out to grab a burger + Coke float. I’m
never drinking Coke again after this haha, though this drink’s making me happy
for some reason and it reminds me of κ³ λ νμ°μμ¨.
Around
7:25
I’m gonna watch an episode of Oh
My Ghost Clients (same guy from Pro Bono too), then I’ll get into more Isaac
Newton stuff after that, maybe even read Extraterrestrial by Avi Loeb. I’ll
probably just stick to like 30 mins each before I jump back into Signal 100 ch
17.
"Personally, I do not enjoy
science fiction when it violates the laws of physics; I like science and I like
fiction but only when they are honest, without pretensions."
— Avi Loeb, Extraterrestrial:
The First Sign of Intelligent Life Beyond Earth
"An apple was no sphere, but
he understood it to be flying through space along with the rest of the earth’s
contents, spinning across 25,000 miles each day. Why, then, did it hang gently
downward, instead of being flung outward like a stone whirled around on a
string? The same question applied to the moon: what pushed it or pulled it away
from a straight path?"
— James Gleick, Isaac Newton
Almost 9
pm already
Do you usually read with lo-fi beats
or rain ambience on? I usually go with rain sounds, but right now it’s
Vivaldi’s Spring playing.
It’s 5:40 pm. I’m upstairs at the
dining table reading my sister’s astronomy and space encyclopedia. Still in the
middle of it but I’m enjoying it like the ones I read earlier. Might also read
Signal 100 for half an hour then switch to a movie. But I might just keep
reading for fun.
“Solitude was the essential part
of his genius.”
— Isaac
Newton (2003) by James Gleick
I don’t know what’s the matter
with people: they don’t learn by understanding; they learn by some other way–by
rote, or something.
— "Surely
You're Joking, Mr. Feynman!": Adventures of a Curious Character
The ancient Egyptians created the
first 365 day solar calendar. The ancient Romans made adjustments and added one
extra day every four years.
In 1582, Pope Gregory XIII (the 13th)
corrected the problems. He ordered that three leap years should be skipped
every 400 years. We use the Gregorian calendar today, named for Pope Gregory.
— Rourke's World of Science
Encyclopedia: Volume 7: Astronomy and Space
Suppose three men can paint three
fences in three hours. How long would it take one man to paint one fence? It’s
tempting to blurt out “one hour.”
Today I spent a good few minutes just
looking at my wall instead of doing literally anything useful. I was just staring
at it when I realized I’ve basically mapped out the whole world in front of me.
So my wall is a mashup of math, the universe, and geography, plus anatomy stuff
because skeletons and tummies are cool. And of course, there’s that note from
my little sis calling herself my 'nightmare.' LMAO
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