Sep 11
I’ve been watching this Thai
YouTuber ’cause I really like her style and wanted some inspo for dressing more
girly but still kinda swaggy. But then I got way too invested and started
picking up on how she does things, especially how she manages her money, work,
time, and energy.
Like, she has these golden rules:
Don’t be too strict with yourself.
It’s stressful.
Choose work that gives you the
flexibility you value.
Don’t sacrifice sleep if it makes
you think worse.
Organize your money into
purpose-specific accounts.
This last part was what really won
me over:
“I create a
monthly income statement. Tracking all income and expenses. I can still go back
and see exactly how much I earned that year… it helped me understand where my
money is. How much I’ve saved, and how much I’ve grown this year. If I
overspend on something, I’ll know to cut back next month. So now I have a good
sense of what’s worth buying and what’s not.”
Sep 19
I. Reverse Card
I was
actually supposed to be reading a book right now, but out of nowhere, I started
wondering what kind of person I’d want to be with. Hmm. Now that I think about
it, I don’t really expect anything specific. I guess I just care about whether
I’m a good person to be with. Like, whether I can keep things funny and
lighthearted while learning from my own mistakes and what I see around me.
II. Associative
Have you ever
wondered why you even have a favorite color? My favorite color is white, and I
also like soft colors. White just makes me feel super relaxed while soft colors
are just like my little sister who’s always so happy unless someone manages to
annoy her.
III. Pre-mortem thinker
I’m into
systems thinking and behavioral psychology 'cause I get a kick out of breaking
down where the hell other people and I screwed up. One principle I'm trying to
apply now is Charlie Munger's idea that “all I want to know is where I'm going
to die, so I'll never go there.”
IV. NPC
I like
checking out food spots where everyone’s squeezed in together, like street food
stalls or places inside a mall na halos kandungan na kayo ng katabi mo para
lang makakain. And I also just like sitting back and looking at busy streets.
Just watching strangers walk around while others sit at sidewalk cafés,
laughing and chatting over a meal. Sometimes I even overhear what they're
laughing about, and I get caught up laughing too.
I guess you
could say I'm content with just looking at people but I don't want to talk
to them watching what goes on around me. So if I’m opening up to you, just
know I'm either gonna get straight to the point or it just means you’re someone
I really, really care about.
Sep 21. Just a random thought I'm having
I had to
squeeze through a crowd just to get some kwek-kwek from a food cart. I also got
a matcha latte, but this is going to be my last one for a while before I
completely cut out processed sugar. Let’s just say I want to see what happens
to my face and body once I stop putting the usual not-so-healthy stuff into my
system.
Which is
kinda why I’m watching something about the psychology of beauty. Do
good-looking people actually tend to be healthier, or do we just think they
are? Hold on, am I just gaslighting myself into thinking they're healthy just
because they look good?
Sep 22
I
I decided to
take a break and try a few quizzes just to see what they might pick up about my
thinking patterns.
One quiz said
I’m wired to spot links between things and make sense of why I do what I do,
but it still doesn’t know why all I can cook is boiled eggs. I laughed when it
called me out for jumping from one interesting thing to another like I have no
attention span, then just decided I’m an ambivert. Did this quiz just turn into
a game of Two Truths and a Lie out of nowhere?
II
I got my lil sis a blueberry soda as a surprise. I realized I
might’ve taken the teasing a little too far the other day and felt kinda awful
afterward. When I get hyper, I’m like ten times more annoying than she is
(oops).
III
You know how
some people are like, super obsessed with Googling and researching stuff all
day? Yes, I get locked in on that stuff too. Except my writing's way less about
research and more about whatever I notice. Like, right now, I’m just looking at
my homepage and this Vanessa Van Edwards name pops up, and come to find out
she’s got this whole thing built around understanding human behavior. Okay, I’ve
got like seven tabs open. Let’s see what I can learn from how she approaches
this.
Sep 29
Yung pilit
mong sinasabi sa sarili mo na part ng study aesthetic ang iced latte at
sandwich para lang ‘di ka makonsensya sa diet mo (haha)
I’ve got 83
video lectures to work through, along with some pretty heavy reading. Before I
get started, I want to establish why I’m going through all of this in the first
place. And five days from now, what do I want to be able to explain or predict
that I can’t yet? What problem will I be able to solve that I can’t solve now?
And where am I actually going to use this?
I’m just
getting ready for whatever gets thrown at me in sales. And there are two things
I want to nail down.
One, I want
to anticipate how I’m likely to respond when things go wrong. What if I work my
arse off and still don’t close a single sale? How am I likely to behave when
I’m actually out there prospecting, following up, and doing viewings, but they
aren’t turning into sales? What happens to my thinking when I see other people
succeeding and I’m not? Honestly, I don’t even wanna know. I'd rather just have
a plan like I’m El Profesor’s protégé from La Casa de Papel.
Two, I want
to be able to look at a situation and explain what made someone say yes after
saying no.
Sep 30
I just had
this really good iced Spanish latte, and now I'm watching a show about a
billionaire hypnotist in Cape Town and thinking, I need to learn how to
hypnotize myself into only wanting water. Anyways, I just wanna see if I can
learn anything from him (or use it to troll my little sister) because I just
can’t seem to watch anything normally.
Oct 2
I. Behavioral
Just got a
caramel macchiato, and now I’m setting up for a 10-hour study block using 50/10
pomodoros. At least with the timer, I know when it’s time to get serious at
kung kelan ako magsasayang ng buhay kado-doomscroll hehe. The Pomodoro’s just
there to give my attention some structure 'cause I’m either hyper-focused or
like completely brain-dead.
II. Psychological
If I ever got
cheated on... how would I see it?
Like, would I
just see it as a sign of someone who never actually respected themselves to
begin with? Would I even want to look at a person who just throws away their
dignity like it’s a used sanitary pad? Or would I just think, how can they even
look at themselves after that and not feel cheap? So, why do I think this way?
I think some
of this goes back to my dad.
When I was
just a kid, my mom died of cancer. My dad used to tell me how she was
constantly coughing up blood toward the end. Things got so bad that I had to go
live with another family, and they raised me. And through all those years, my
dad never had anyone else until he died in 2010.
Oct 3
I
It’s lunchtime. Am I even looking at my food right now? Nope. I
don't even know why I'm sitting here drooling over supercars.
Oh, maybe
because when I was a kid, my older sis had this whole collection of toy
Ferraris, Lambos, and other exotic cars. God knows where she got them all. One
thing I remember really well from when I was little is that I always had a
thing for this little red Ferrari. I used to read the names on the boxes too,
but I probably said them all wrong. Oh, and I used to smash the other cars into
each other just for fun, then I'd wonder why the heck they were so tough to
crack. And of course, I wish I'd known back then that I wasn't supposed to do
that to supercars. Maybe that’s why I just moved on to playing Wolverine haha
II
Sobrang sarap
ng matcha croissant, buti wala dito si Elyza. Pero okay lang, may pa-matcha
strawberry naman ako sa kanyang pampalubag-loob. I also hid this little mystery
box for her in my closet because she always snoops around in there for
snacks anyway I noticed she looked pretty down when she got home from
school the other day. So I decided to save it for her not-so-good days. Pwede
siyang bumunot ng isa, o sige dalawa na para super happy siya tsaka para
makapag-move on na ’tong batang ’to sa burger na kinain ko mag-isa.
Anyway, this was her back when she still had those chubby cheeks.
III
Alright, so
I've been analyzing how the multi-millionaires and billionaires spend their
days. Like, where does their time even go? How are these guys guarding their
time? And then I got to thinking... what changes in the way they make decisions
when money stops being a constraint? Like, when I’m broke, am I really gonna
overthink buying a milk tea? Interesting
yung difference between constraint-based purchasing and preference-based
purchasing, noh?
Oct 6. How sitting by a window can be so expensive
I’m just
sitting by the window and thought I’d write down whatever came to mind. Then
one thought led to another and now I’m like, what if a blank check just landed
in my lap right now? What the heck would I even buy first?! Maybe a racing
simulator, a telescope, a microscope... what if I just buy out an entire manga
collection instead?
Oct 7. There’s one kid who might absolutely destroy this narrative
haha
A guy wrote
this about me way back then:
“Makulit sya,
pero hindi yung nakakainis, yung kulit na nakakatuwa, akala ko nga nung una
seryoso syang tao pero hindi naman pala todo, may pagkamakalog din pala sya,
sabe nga ”dont judge the book by its cover”, yan, isa din yan sa lagi nyang
sinasabe.
,,at mahilig
sya sa libro, aklat, novels, bible at mga research, in short mahilig sya
magbasa. kapag may book masaya na sya, napakasimpleng ugali na magugustuhan ng
kahit na sino (isa na ko don). kung isa syang book anu kaya sya? siguro
mystery. bagay sa kanya ang ‘dont judge the book by its cover’, yung cover nya
seryoso pero kalog pala page, yung cover nya malalim pero masasabayan mu palang
basahin, yung cover nya hard (kase ayaw nya ng iyak) pero softhearted din naman
pala ang nilalaman. makikilala mo sya kapag nakilala ka na nya, maybe ”its the
book that didn’t judge who reads her”.
I wondered if
he was just describing the little things he had picked up on, or if he was
really trying to understand me. But if he was trying to understand me through
what he observed, what was he telling me about himself without actually saying
it?
Oct 9. The playful one
I
I'm easy to
win over.
You know how
some people spend hours learning things like it's gonna buy them a Ferrari, and
others need a push? All you have to do is wave a hotdog sandwich in front of me
and I'm sold.
II
I enjoy
observing, too (I didn’t get eyes for nothing).
III
I can breeze
through 160+ sales psychology Reels like it’s nothing. Maybe I have ADHD, but
I'm no Dr. Sasha Hamdani so I don't even wanna know.
IV. This is so random
btw this was
me at 29
me at 30 with
my L (Death Note) plushie
the unserious
scorpio
