Overslept but Happy New Year 😆🎉

 

Grabe yung idlip ko

Naka-free trial yata ako sa kabilang buhay, ang haba ng tulog ko. Goal ko lang sana mag-nap ng 1 hour 15 minutes. Kaso, in-off ko ang alarm kaya ayan, paggising ko, pang-dinner na.

Kanta-kanta lang naman ako kanina pero feel na feel ko talaga 🎤 🤭

 

🍵🎉

Masaya pa rin mag-pronounce kahit bibig ko pagod na. 🤣 Grabe, alam mo, Mandarin’s been more of an on-and-off hobby for me. I guess I'm just really into how it sounds. But if I go by my heart, I’d like to be able to have conversations with locals all over China. That’s why I shouldn’t slack on practice if I really wanna pull this off. Anyways, just gonna enjoy some warm tea while welcoming the New Year.

the art of switching

Bahala na kayo mag-adjust

Ala-una na, chicken ang lunch ko ngayon. Galit-galit muna dahil gutom na 'ko. Dami kong cases na ia-analyze mamaya sana maisingit ko pa yung paglalaba. Technically, may apat akong switch: yung tahimik lang sa gilid, yung pa-clown, at yung high IQ mode na feeling ko, ikayayaman ko na talaga 'to. Yung pang-apat na switch ko ay exclusive.

Pahinga muna bago ang bakbakan

Why do I feel like a Dilraba fan now? I already prepped my lunch, dinner, and snacks so nothing interrupts my TV time. Naka-low-power mode muna ako. Kasi I’m about to do some real 'out of the box' stuff soon.

It’s funny how everyone else sees it as just a career but the way I see it, I'm just finally following my heart.

Flashback muna tayo sa 2018

How could I forget this one call...

Sobrang apathetic ni Ma'am, as in cold talaga. But the more we talked, the more she opened up about her son who’s studying law at DLSU and why we should meet once she flies back here. She even insisted on giving me her personal email so I could reach out after working hours. I let her know that as much as I appreciate it, it’s against our office rules. The thing was, she wouldn't even hang up without a 'yes' that I’d give it a chance anyway.

In my head I was like, 'How do I tell my TL naka-close ako ng sale and ng biyenan!'

hindi lang food trip

 

💖

 

Part I

I catch myself asking if I’m actually introverted to be honest. Like, I feel half introvert and half... I dunno, something else entirely. Or maybe I just don’t care about categorizing myself as long as I'm happy with the people I'm around.

Kaya siguro gusto ko yung feel-at-home lang tayo na nag-uusap habang kumakain kesa sa kainan lang talaga. I feel like, everything tastes better when the talk is as good as the food.

 

Part II

Habang pinapanood ko 'tong video, bigla akong ginanahan magsulat. Sa mga bansa na gusto kong puntahan, ito kasi talaga yung number one sa listahan ko but not for the usual reasons.

Hanggang ngayon, dala-dala ko pa rin yung mga kwentong napanood ko noon. Una, yung sa Sun Village sa Beijing para sa mga anak ng incarcerated parents. Hindi naman dapat nadadamay ang mga bata sa pagkakamali ng matatanda.

And then yung story ng tito na sinalo yung pamangkin niya kahit sobrang hirap lang nila. Total sacrifice talaga mapag-college lang si Yang Yang, kahit hirap na hirap na sila sa pera.

Pangarap ko silang mabisita hindi lang para mag-tour-tour.

snack time gone wrong

I just wanted to have a cup of warm milk and some toast. But then, things took a dark turn. Next thing I know, I’m sitting here totally creeped out because of what I watched. Sometimes my curiosity leads me to some shady characters that are honestly just creepy.

 

Whenever I’m feeling overwhelmed, I just focus on my breathing to keep my head above water. Hinga lang nang malalim. Kesa naman ma-high blood sa mga bagay na wala naman akong magagawa kahit mag-tumbling pa 'ko rito.

resonance

Daylight

I used to have Ed Sheeran’s 'Perfect' on repeat back in the day. Feel na feel ko lalo kapag nakaangkas sa motor. Para kasing bida sa love story plus car chase sa gitna ng kalsada. These days, though, daylight is totally my jam. It just feels so light, you know? Kinda feels like I was walking through fog before, and now everything’s bright and sunny.

 

Let’s flip

Madali naman talagang maging masaya pag pabor sa’yo ang lahat, no? Pero abangan natin yung Uno Reverse.

Maybe that’s why I click with people who stay grounded kahit nagkakandaleche-leche na ang lahat. My type is literally just someone who sees the fire and goes, 'Is that all you got?'

Habang ako, lalamon lang ng popcorn sa side.

 

Like Attracts Like

Gusto ko ng match na kasing-gulo ko.

Hindi lang 'to dahil pareho tayong walang matinong magawa. Malalim na usapan ’to ng soul frequency.

I read somewhere that once you find someone just as crazy as you, hindi ka na mag-e-explain kung ba’t nakikipag-usap ka sa rabbit sa rooftop. Gagatungan pa niya ang energy mo. Bale, iisang kable lang talaga ang pinaghuhugutan niyo.

Kaya habang ninanamnam ko 'tong maligamgan na tubig, bigla akong na-enlighten. Di ko pala kailangan ng knight in shining armor, kasi let's face it. Good looks come and go, but being funny as hell? That's forever. 

Diyan tayo sa partner na gagawing date ang apocalypse.💜

 

 

goofy thoughts

So the other day…

Grabe yung plot twist habang kumakain ako ng fried chicken! Mas matagal pa yatang pinirito 'tong manok kaysa sa itinagal ko sa chess board. 33 moves lang, yung King ko nag-ascend na sa kabilang dimension. Buhay pa Queen ko, pero ako parang kwek-kwek na nalaglag sa kanal.


Alam mo yung feeling na mas shookt ka pa sa nanalo?

 

Bago kami mag-umpisa, may pa-manifest pa si sisteret. She really looked me in the eye and said, 'It would be an honor to beat you.

 

Naka-tingin pa sa mata ha 🤣

Me and this chonky bunny 🐇

Anyare sa schedule ko? Nakatulog ako nang bongga buong araw... pag-gising ng person gabi na. Biglang nag-flashback sa'kin yung mga labada! Sana labada na lang ang mag-adjust papuntang washing machine, noh?

 

So ayun, tumambay na lang ako rito sa rooftop. Grabe, ang lamig-lamig ng hangin. Tinitignan ko lang yung maliit na buwan hanggang mawala siya sa ulap.

 

Naka-lounge nga pala sa tabi ko ’tong rabbit ng kapatid ko. Sobrang taba ng rabbit niya parang laging nasa food trip.

 

O sha, imma watch Thai horror series na sa baba.

To the sister God knew I’d need

 

Do you ever wonder why we still don’t have a way of knowing when we’re going to die? I mean, it’s just kinda wild that no matter how advanced things are, we still don’t know. The thought that it might happen out of nowhere is hella unsettling. And I wish I didn't have to know how it felt. It’s wild how I was just with my best friend tapos hindi na siya nagising. And right then, my heart just didn’t feel the same anymore.

 

Isipin mo na lang, wala na yung real parents ko, pati yung mga nagpalaki sa'kin, nawala rin. Now, even my other best friend isn't here anymore. Ano bang feeling ng sunud-sunod na mawalan? Minsan napapatanong na lang ako, pa'no ba i-digest yung ganitong pakiramdam?  

 

So, how do you even move forward when the person who gave you a home when you had none is erased from your everyday life?

 

Medyo dark, 'di ba? But ayun yung pinaka-root ng 'funny Ate Iya' vibe you see every day. When you’ve lost as much as I have, you just realize na yung mga akala nating 'small stuff' lang, yun pala yung pinaka-big deal all along, noh?

taglish

 

Kwento kwento muna

Tapos na ‘ko mag-lunch so pwede na mag-merienda haha. Ano ba pwede pag-usapan habang nagpapanggap tayong productive?

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga bet yung fan service. Kasi gurl, parang wala namang substance. Mas pinapanood ko talaga yung interviews nila kasi dun mo makikita kung may depth o hanggang face value lang. Sino ba yung may sariling isip? Yung may depth kahit konti lang.

Anyways, I’m kinda getting my stuff together for my interviews. Fingers crossed the interviewers aren’t as shallow as some actors who only have a pretty face.

Boom.

 

Yung tipong mapapaisip ka

It’s so dope when people just roll into your life parang paalala na hindi pala lahat pare-pareho. You just know, they’re on a different wavelength. Mas naa-appreciate ko sila kasi dumaan na rin tayo sa mga maling tao, kaya mas kita mo kung sino yung tunay na may value. It’s like, It’s easier to see how much someone matters when you’ve met the ones who weren’t for you.

 

Playful

That feeling when you just can’t stay still while singing along. Buti nalang wala ako sa bus, kasi todo galaw na talaga ’ko 😆

May sakit pa ’ko ngayon pero ang saya ko parang walang sakit, akala mo talaga in love haha.

me doing me

Spanish latte?🙃
Nagmadali pa akong gumising para inumin ’to, didn’t like it though. Nginuya-nguya ko na lang ’tong bibingka at puto bumbong, tapos tubig ang finishing move.

I guess I’ll just go with my usual brewed coffee or Viet coffee matcha next round.

😉
Why was my lunch a strawberry donut? Don’t even, it’s a mystery even to me.

🃏
Should be productive, but I’m just gonna play chess first. Later, I’ll show my little sis the trick. I just wanna see the other player’s face when she snags the win.

Little tidbits about me while I’m enjoying my ice cream treat

 

·      Chicken might actually be my favorite food, aside from tofu.

·      I’m introverted, so I tend to keep my social energy for people who genuinely interest me.

·      I like looking at things from unexpected angles. Dunno why, but I just can’t settle for the obvious or the linear. Maybe that’s why school feels like a never-ending commercial to me.

·      I’m inspired by people who go against the usual definition of good.

·      I can’t help but be drawn to people who make me question the usual way of seeing things. That’s why I’ve got mad respect for Alan Turing, Charlie Munger, and especially Osho.

🎵
I’ve sung these so many times kahit hindi ko feel sa buhay ko hahaha! Thai words are harder for me to pronounce than Mandarin, but I’m a happy-go-lucky person, so I’ll just laugh it off.

😂

Early in the afternoon
Forda ligo sa ulan ang ferson. I just wanted to head out and walk around a bit, but got lightly rained on. Masaya maglakad-lakad, kulang lang ng bundok para cinematic. Anyways, sa Laguna na lang ako magda-drama with nature. I’ll ask Fia, Freia, and Allen to come along ‘cause they love walking too.

 

Looks like I’m binging shows more than reading anything else this week. It’s fine, tomorrow it’s all about getting my to-dos done. 

“There is always a loophole in a perfect crime.”

Around 6:30
Chowing down on spicy tofu and chicken. I’ve got like 10 Chinese shows lined up, so I need to eat fast 😂

“Relationships between people are subtle. You will never know whether the people around you will bring you happiness or pain. If one day you are groping in the dark alone, you can ask me for help.”

I was dying laughing
Lil’ sis’s been here so watching was basically canceled haha! She asked if we could practice chess tomorrow and we cooked up some moves to finally beat her dad lol.

After that, I randomly asked her if she could name 11 countries starting with ‘A’. She got 5 right and then tried to name the others, and it was super fun because she was laughing while learning new stuff.

 

Dec 19 & 20

You said corpses don’t lie. But what about living humans? How do I judge if a person’s words is worthy of trust?

There’s no sure way to judge a person or if the person is telling the truth or not. However my principle is as long as a person tells me something that saves lives, I’ll choose to believe it, truth or lie.

Fri, December 19
Just nibbling on cinnamon bread while watching a murder case. I don’t know what it is, but cases that never got solved always pull me in. I sometimes think that in a different dimension, I’m the one solving them as a detective, a forensic analyst, a profiler, or even a hacker.

 

Saturday, December 20
It’s a rainy afternoon. I’m just sitting around with my laptop, while sipping on some hot water. Which should I munch on first, the coffee bun or the blueberry muffin?

 

Around 10ish in the evening
I was in the middle of watching a crime drama when my younger sib casually sat next to me and started chatting about the penthouse she’s building in Roblox. Did you know she talks as if I’m free all day, but I still end up laughing because she catches me off guard? Haven’t told her yet that just listening to her always takes me back to my childhood.

just typing out whatever comes to mind

Kwentuhan

Ugali ko na maglakad-lakad kapag malalim ang iniisip ko. Kaya ayun, napunta ako sa kanto at kumain ng corn dog. Yung hindi masarap pero naubos mo pa rin kasi sayang naman? Haha.

There are days I just can’t focus on reading or watch the documentaries I usually watch. So anytime my head gets busy or I start thinking too much, I usually just go for a walk.

 

Next Chapter  

I’m totally hyped about meeting and teaming up with new people, and on top of that, I’m saving up for a one-on-one session with a trainer I really like in the UK. Finally going for this career path I delayed since 2018. Fun fact: I did the whole sales thing before, and somehow got tagged a sales monster while I was barely a newbie!

Sometime around 4 

It’s been a while since I last watched a Chinese movie or show. No idea why, but today I just felt like it. Every now and then I wonder if I really want to get serious about this language, since I don’t see myself just going somewhere for the sake of traveling. I wanna chat in their language, hang around and share a meal with the locals. And discover stuff I’d never see on my own.

 

 

Late at night

Sitting here with a mug of hot milk and hunting for one final show to end the night.

little moments

Quiet time

At some point over a cappuccino, I started thinking my blog might need one last rename. It started as Solum Scribere, moved to The Storyteller, became The Researcher, and now I’m drawn to the idea of a field note. Or just a short little note, like one of those silly chats I have with my younger sis. 

Late afternoon

Got myself a burger and an ice-cream soda ’cause I’m gonna read a bit of Demon Slayer today. Oh, and my buddy’s on my laptop wallpaper now. He’s the one who got me excited about chasing my passion. I thought it was teaching kids at first. But actually… I already have a sense of what I want. I just never really sat down to think about it.

 

Unplanned

I laughed way too much at random stuff tonight, not stressing about anything at all. Honestly though, I’m liking this side of me more. I’m usually on the quiet side, but I also love laughing at dumb stuff and picking up things from random people. Ever notice how some things just click when you see them from someone else’s side?

 

sisterhood

Around five o’clock

It’s a rainy day, and we’re enjoying ice cream right now. Let’s put your A.P. studies aside for a bit, haha.

I leave in twelve days, so I’m making a learning system for you. But you decide if it works for you or not. No worries on my end. After all, you’ve got a good mind, and I know you’ll use that to help others.

 

 

9-ish

My life’s been so simple and happy, but I just wanted to see more of the world so you won’t be afraid to do the same. Don’t be afraid to question or even roast your own ideas.

I’ve got your back, always.